Water

Water

A love too true
To lose to darkness
A song too strong
To drown in silence

A heart made strong
But in need of answers
A friend forever
Against the encroaching darkness

Flowing from home to home
For others still fighting
Against the unrelenting
Against the unforgiving

The water flows swift
But too often a tide behind
Stopping to help in the struggles of others
Putting aside personal anxieties

The water flows under
Raising up those that would otherwise sink
Into depths from which
There is no return

The water flows away
Sacrificing her place in the light
Away from her hope
Until she hears his name

Wind

Wind

An innocent heart left fractured
By another's ambition
An innocent heart made whole
By another's destiny

A heart made whole
But left seeking
Forgotten truth
In a broken chain of memories

Flying from step to step
Along the perilous path of fate
Unseen strings
Malevolent puppeteer

The wind blows lost
All the way back home
Brushed aside upon arrival
Falling into darkness discovered

The wind blows with fury
In the face of fate
Against a destiny chosen for him
Reclaiming the inevitable

The wind dies down
Tired from his turmoil
Tired beyond awakening
Awaiting another's destiny

Trapped

Words scraping the inside of the skull
A message massaging the heart into a relaxed rhythm
A need to speak speeding it back up again

As these words flow
From pen to paper

Heart to surface

Ink to reason

He must write

He must

Individuality's Window Never Closes

Visual proclivities
Obscuring my reality
Obstructing what is real
What is true
What I feel

What is pretty
Is pretty feeling
But why not appreciate
The temporary
Don't think of it
As what will never be forever
But instead as what was only once
And will never be again

You're one in a million
A billion
A trillion
For however long that lasts on the outside
It will be forever true on the inside

This one's for you
The one who stays true
To who
Who you are through
And through

Xzistense Resolved

Xzistense Resolved

What better me
To be
Than the memory

Thoughts of the past
Made greater by nostalgia

Thoughts of what was
Made greater by the lack of failure
Inevitable failure
Of who I was sure to be

What I could be
Will always be
Better than what I ever am

I could be a memory
Greater than this travesty
Of mistakes
And lessons learned...

Too late

Therefore lessons learned
Without value

So I exit
Uneducated
Unresolved
Unfulfilled
And without doubt
That this is the better
The better me
The me of only

Strictly

Memory

Serenity Lost

Serenity Lost

I am without
The strength of a husband
Within me
Are heartbeats too few
To spare

I am without
The strength of a father
Within me
Is care compressed in time,
Limits, and conditions

I am without
The strength of a brother
Within me
Is a vacuum void of light
Capable of guiding

I am without
The strength of a son
Within me is gratitude overdone
And therefore disingenuous
Towards those most deserving of only what's real

I am without
The strength of a friend
Within me
Are needs too many
And gifts too few

I am without
The strength of a teacher
Within me
Are no lessons left
No lectures, speeches, nor anecdotes

I am without strength
And likely always was
After all, what kind of strength
Taps out at twenty-eight?

Living With Anxiety

Living With Anxiety

With every step
My heart strains
As if that last stair
Could be the last stair

I stagger into bed
My head falling upon pillows
Cushions meant for comfort
Cause the damn to collapse

My defenses are down
And the demons creep in
Demons born of my weaknesses

The weakness of fear
All-consuming doubt

The weakness of anger
Mostly turned inward

The weakness of obscurity
Never standing with a sense of clarity

The weakness of weakness
Unable to stand strong
No matter who
Tries so hard
Cares so much
To pull me to my feet

No matter how much others believe
No matter how many others there are

I stagger up stairs
With a heart as weak
As the rest of me

And once that small wall of strength
Melts away without a fight
That stair
Will be the last stair

And being weak
Or being strong
Won't matter anymore

And losing the fight to my weaknesses
Won't matter anymore

It just won't matter
Anymore